Rachel Brown

Just Thinking...

Rachel Brown
Just Thinking...

So I've realized I've been wearing this sweater a lot lately...only because it's my favorite!! But do you want to know a secret? I've had it for almost a year, and I only just cut the tags off last month. No, it wasn't still in my closet, I've worn it many many times. I just have a tag problem. 

This photo was actually taken on Microsoft campus, one day when Zach met up with me to go for a walk. I was having a very bad day, and just needed to get out of the office. Sometimes doing something artistic, or doing something to feel good about yourself is a good way to calm down or blow off some steam. So while I am smiling in the photo, I was beyond anxious on the inside. 

A bit about me: during college, I developed terrible terrible anxiety. I'm not quite sure what set it off, but it hasn't seemed to go away. Fortunately, I have a wonderful partner who has this magical ability to calm me down when I get like this. But before, I just remind myself that I am in fact so lucky, to have a roof over my head, to have food to have a job. Usually these attacks don't happen in public (thank god), but it just goes to show that you can't judge a book by its cover. Would you have known that about me when you first looked at this photo? So many people have baggage or issues. The main thing is to remember that you aren't alone.